Put a little more life in my day

I feel like SUCH a crazy person right now! Seriously. My life is hectic and I just want to scream "SLOW DOWN!" I want to be able to have time to "stop and smell the roses" and all those other wonderful cliche's.

Last night I was hanging out with my FMIL and she was telling me that the fact that I don't have time to do the things I did before (like watch a lot of TV and read froofy books) means that I'm actually doing something with my day, but I don't care... I don't want to be "doing something" with my days. I just want to be able to enjoy my life and right now I'm in the prison of doing things that I'm "suppose" to do, and fulfilling things that society tells me I'm obligated to do (school and work. bleh bleh bleh).

I know I'm already starting to complain about this a lot and I've only had school for a few weeks, and I really really shouldn't be complaining because lots of people have SO MUCH MORE schooling left than I do. I should really just be thankful, but I'm finding it really really hard...I just want to have time to be with people and not have to worry about all these silly responsibilities. I miss my Jacob. I know that I see him at least three days a week but...I use to see him every day. We would do things together and have time for "fun." But even when I got to see him everyday, I still missed out on things because I had to go to work. Now it's even worse because I've got school in the morning and work during the night and I'm always too busy to do the things we use to do together.

ON the brighter side of things...I know that being in school often helps me improve in other areas of life because I'm more often then not trying to avoid homework. Haha. I think I'll start doing pilates/yoga again, and I'm always a better house cleaner during school. That whole situation is more complicated now, however, because last semester when I was in cleaning mode I would just clean Jake's house (which often needs it). But now I have my OWN house as well. So, it's gonna be a tricky balance figuring out where I'm going to spend those hard earned cleaning hours this semester.

Anyways...sorry about all my jibberish complaining and such. Here's to hoping I don't get burned out this semester by trying to do just too dang much.

<3-- Me =)