Influence

I discovered another new and lovely song. (ok, so I had heard it many times before, but it's really hitting home right now).
I Need You to Love Me
Some of my favorite lyrics:

Why, why are You still here with me
Didn't You see what I've done?
In my shame I want to run and hide myself
But it's here I see the truth
I don't deserve You

The Part about "Why are you still here with me? Didn't you see what I've done?" almost just made me burst into tears when I was listening to it. The whole song is really powerful but another lyric that really speaks to me in my life right now is this:

"I won't keep my heart from You this time"

I want the maker of my life and my soul to know that I love Him and that I NEED Him. I know he knows this. And I know he knows that I know this (haha...sounds like a line from a movie). I just want to reiterate it and acknowledge it.
Anyways, songs and music have been really touching my life lately. I listen to Christian music in the morning and it helps touch my spirit and start my day out right (The north central station, 95 point something, and KTIS 98.5 are the only Minnesota ones I know. Guess I'll have to learn what the stations are in FL when/if I go) and I also try to listen to it whenever I'm in the car. That kind of music makes me feel good inside, and I'm in the car A LOT. So it helps me to have good days when I have good music going into my soul.

I also need good people. I'm in prayer about that right now.

The other thing I'm enjoying right now is a book called "Lady in Waiting: Becoming God's Best while Waiting for Mr. Right" by Jackie Kendall and Debby Jones. That's a book I started thanks to the Best Friend, who read it after a break-up while she waited to "discover" her Hubby, Phil. I admired her so much for breaking up with her ex-boyfriend because he wasn't good for her and I was so proud of her for becoming an amazing woman of God while she "waited." What the book teaches about is finding peace and fulfillment in God, saying that a man won't DO those things and you won't ever be fulfilled by finding a husband, but that you can only be fulfilled when you seek to "be One" with God.

Right now I'm thankful for good music, good literature, and good people. They help influence my life for the better, and I'm thankful.

PS: Lauren. Thank you for being such an amazing influence in my life. I've always looked up to you and you've always been my role model. You have been and continue to be an amazing example. This is a shout out to you. My beautiful best friend. =)