But I'm still a dreamer, have no doubt.
Isn't it so beautiful? That's Dunedin, Florida
My current life goal is to leave. I just want to go and do and be! My other goal is to dedicate my life to God. I told him to re-shape me and help me to be the person that HE wants me to be. I'm done saying what I want. I want Him to tell me what I want. Haha. I don't know if that even makes sense, but that's just how I feel.
I'm not really sure where my life is heading. And I feel like that's ok...because...I just want God to plan it. For so long I've been trying to force my own way through life and "make my own path" and I didn't really care what anyone else said or thought. Including God. But now I'm free and I'm giving myself back to Him. I know I want to move to Florida, and I know I want to meet someone who will lead me in God's ways and who is a stronger Christian than I am. I also know I want horses. Other than the warmth, a "better" guy, and horses...I have no idea. I'm not in control anymore. And that's a bit scary, but it's also exciting.
I'm excited about life, and I'm excited about what God's going to do for me and with me.
The only thing I can control at the moment is getting to a warmer climate. It's something I've always wanted and I'm praying about it to make sure it's what God wants for me. I think it will be good for me. It'll help me "start over" to be able to pick new people to surround myself with. So...the plan is to finish school, finish my lease, move home with my parents (not something I'm exactly excited about, but the dollar signs are flashing in my head), and eventually move to Florida and live with my aunt or my grandmother.
My family and I (minus one brother, I believe) are going to China next summer to visit two separate orphanages. We're going with a group from our church and I am SO excited about it. I mean... I get to go to CHINA. What a cool opportunity. A chance to serve and be with my Jesus, as well. I can't wait. We're fundraising for that right now and it's on my mind a lot. That's happening in the end of July/beginning of August (I just typed October instead of August...whoops. haha. That would be a BIG window). So I wouldn't be going to Florida until after that for sure. Plenty of time to save for the move, right? Well...we'll just see about that.
So that's how I would describe me right now... a dreamer whose rooted in Jesus Christ.
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